I am here. Not hiding, just thinking.
Starting some things and not finishing them. So many competing demands.
Completing some long-unfinished tasks.
Finished the advanced fetal assessment course and passed. Yay!
Struggling a bit with fragile hope. About many things.
Listening, loving, waiting. Feeling.
Uncovering old stuff. Wishing I hadn't. Damned core beliefs (again).
Reframing painful things. Forgiving myself. Naming guilty parties.
Headaches. Just tension. Tears near the surface.
Doing for others. Should I be?
Learning to do for me. First, for a change.
Letting others help me. Its been a long time.
Hearing old voices and emotions. Do they belong here, now? Fighting and reframing their influence.
Feeling judged. Need I anymore?
What can I let go of? Do I need all this clutter? This baggage. Literally. Its weighing me down.
Freedom in the moonlight. A new way forward?
Much to think about...